ffs

Mar. 11th, 2016 04:09 pm
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 i am bad at paying attention to things

also at writing fic

this is a note to my dumb ass to actually do that next time i log into this site as this rather than as an rp account, even if it's 100% pointless garbage
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man. I should be caring about more things around now, especially since finals are popping up, but that's really, really not happening.

I'll probably look back on this post in a few weeks and feel CRIPPLING GUILT for it, but for now, eh. 

hff

Oct. 28th, 2015 09:20 pm
thethrillof: (sans stability)
[ rolls around in disease and monster hell]
thethrillof: (oh.)
i've been in a really odd mood the past couple days. quiet? i haven't been talking to anyone much. not because i feel avoidance-y, just because i can't muster up words to say.

tbh i have no idea if i finally crashed or what. i feel less angry in general, so that's good, i guess?

dealing with weird nostalgic feelings but not entirely. things i've never played have been giving me rushes of emotion. i keep seeing pictures of cities and parts of nature i've never been to before and it feels like i was, a long time ago. is that what deja vu is? i don't think so. or people have been exaggerating its effects.

i wish i could work at the movie theater. sadly the closest place that had an opening is almost four hours away, so whoops, probably shouldn't have set my heart on that and only that (for some reason idk why i did in the first place)

also i am very bad at pc games. the entirety of my experience with that shit is shitty flash games circa neopets and the first twenty minutes of OFF.

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 ehhh well. that explains a lot of things.

orz

Oct. 11th, 2015 05:11 pm
thethrillof: (fff ♥)
genuine mounting fear over not being able to write edward wtf is this

idk i've just never had a muse stick with me for so long i don't know what to do now even though i still have interest in him

-

Sep. 19th, 2015 07:28 pm
thethrillof: (fff ♥)
i wish you could 'like' posts here because i don't always have a coherent comment to make but i don't want to seem like i'm ignoring stuff when i'm not
thethrillof: (Default)
tries to write porn 

feels said porn is too bland 

irritably discards
thethrillof: (suspicious sideye)
I am just waiting to hit the point where I'm worrying so hard it all fades into the background.

Dunno if that's gonna happen though because a lot of it is tinged with anger, which hasn't happened before. At least not to this amount.

hm

Aug. 25th, 2015 02:48 pm
thethrillof: (ninetales - (oh) the grudges we hold)
 considering blowing a chunk of my bank account on getting a good camera tbh
thethrillof: (joker eugh)
 Tracking shit because my body is ridiculous.
thethrillof: (Default)
 launches writing into the sun

:I

Jul. 21st, 2015 12:22 pm
thethrillof: (suspicious sideye)
 things i have learned on this sort-of vacation:
  • dishwashers suck. it doesn't matter if you use them perfectly, they flat-out don't clean shit as well as hand-washing them does.
  • dogs are nice. however, that does not stop them from being friggin' gross.
  • i am very easily bored.
  • i also am fucking awful at keeping a schedule.
  • double-check to see how often you can use a thing rather than tossing it out right off.
  • i can, in fact, function a bit both by myself and while in a state of high anxiety.
  • work at figuring something out before calling someone to help. (i mean, i already do that, but still.) call for help if you're uncertain after a long while, though.
  • lock the fucking door. it doesn't matter how safe the neighborhood is said to be and how the usual owner of this house usually doesn't, having the dog freak out at the door around 2 in the morning is pretty horrifying.

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