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[thethrillof]

genuine mounting fear over not being able to write edward wtf is this

idk i've just never had a muse stick with me for so long i don't know what to do now even though i still have interest in him

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[goodmode]

i used to feel the same way about eridan sometimes... it's kind of jarring to think maybe you might not have that, but, trust me when i say a muse never really goes away.

really, all that's ebbing is your excitement over playing them. and that's natural. even if you're the most dedicated fan of the character ever (and as with me & eridan i completely believe you're the same with edward) the shine is going to wear off eventually. that's what happens. it's the natural cycle of things. like old people and marriage, i guess?? haha wow

but my point isn't "lol it sucks the end". my point is not even remotely that. my point IS, just because playing a character has lost its sparkle doesn't mean you suddenly can't, or that the character means any less to you than they ever did.

(aside: it also doesn't mean anyone else will think "oh gee they dont seem to like that character as much as they used to, how fickle!!" trust me no one is even paying that much attention, which is...a double-edged sword because on the one hand you gotta come to terms with that and on the other, playing a character is entirely for you. it has to be. you do it because you love them not bc of anyone else's expectations)

the real point i'm making here, right down to brass tacks, is that you aren't going to suddenly forget how to play Edward Nygma of TB canon. it's exactly like riding a bike. you don't forget and you don't lose traction, you just get so used to it that it stops being a thing you have to spend time on in order to be good at. and that's when you get worried, understandably, but it is what it is.

as far as i could tell there was no loss of IC quality towards you putting things on hold, so... yeah. idk

as someone who went through the same thing with my stupid homestuck muse, let me tell u, they dont go away. they just stop pestering u every 5 mins and instead u get to exchange knowing smirks with them every so often bc u two have been together for so long and u go together like cake & coffee

tl;dr you know that scene in kikis delivery service? have u seen that? where the artist girl is like "just stop trying for a while and it'll come back unexpectedly" well this is kinda like that

[thethrillof]

quietly bookmarks this heh

"have u seen kiki's delivery service" lol yeah you streamed it and i am p sure i teared up at a part of it yeah it's just...i have kind of been taking a break from him for a while? being on hfm has not been super fastpaced in general and other than that it feels like i've barely been touching him this year. and while yeah i'm writing him for me i don't want to accidentally stop up everything because i cannot hear his voice when i write literally anything for him. I TRUST U THOUGH.